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| Sunday, December 17th, 2006 | | 3:11 pm |
Yes! Yes! Yes! I am done shopping! Done! Finished!
It took a while, and there were some hurdles to get over - but I am done. All I have to do is grab a roll of scratch tickets to supplement gifts and give to those I didnt purchase for who will be at gatherings etc... The thrill of being done. I have wrapped everything purchased excpet a few items that were backordered online which should arrive any day now. (hopefully) Buying gifts for women is fine, and for men as well, but when it comes to buying presents for men who have their own women - that is tougher! Really, my dad and George's dad, not a problem - but my brother or George's brother in law well - crap! you know? I can't buy Kane clothes, and I can't buy him items for his house - because Margery likes to buy such things herself. And he doesnt enjoy hobbies like he used to since has no time. I don't know, was very tough this year. This past week was horrible schedule wise. Not only are a ton of my projects wrappign up and I am trying to finish my work so I can take the week of xmas- the 1st off. But then suddenly I had a bunch of random requests for names research on the side, and I have been sick for a month with the cold that will not end. Anyway, I just finished. I am sleeping tonight! I got new bath toys for the kids today as well - those things get REALLY nasty after a few months. | | Sunday, December 10th, 2006 | | 3:07 pm |
"Do not squander time...It is the stuff life is made of"
Time quote is from the clock outside of Twelve Oaks, the Wilkes plantation in GWTW. I havent had much spare time lately. Work has been very stressful and busy and time consuming. I am still only going into the office for 3-5 hours a day, but I am putting in at least 10 hours between afternoons and weekends at home. I went to Pittsburgh a few weeks ago. Quick daytrip to meet a lcient and kick off a new project. Was my frist time in Pittsburgh and I was very dissapointed that my meeting schedule did not allow me to see Kerri and visit her new house she bought last year. However Kerri was up for Thanksgiving a weke later an dI saw her and met Ruby, her awesome loving dog. then 2 weeks ago I had another day trip to Philly this time. Same company, different division for another project. it was an mid-project update that went very well. Work is unbelievable. I never thought I woudl find a job I love so much. It suits me perfectly and everyoen is always giving me positive reinforcement and encouragement. my 6 month review is Tuesday and I am looking forward to it. Much as the 2 hour commute sucks in the morngin I just love being back in/near the city. I have been seeing Chris occassionally, and I jsut joined a book club to force myself to begin reading good books again instead of just romance novels to escape reality on occassion. Book this month was In Cold Blood, by Capote. I don't like Capote. While he is real expert at developing detail and carrying momentum of time, I think his characters are one dimensional and flat. Take Holly Golightly - in Breakfast at Tiffanys. She is flighty and inconsistant. Thats it, there is no delvign to find other character traits - this is all she is and all he wrote so to speak. Anyway In Cold Blood, was good, I never saw the movie and could really appreciate the detail and talent it takes to drag out one damned day across 100= pages. And he did an excellent job of portraying the crime. But still - Nancy was super nice and perfect, Dad was straightlaced, killers were rather mindless, mom was neurotic etc... one dimensional. moving on - Ashleigh is back in daycare. part of why I have had no time since September was that I started sending Ash to my mom's too. It may be greatg for the kids, but for me, the constant pressure to get home and relieve my mom is unbearable. The unfairness of ths, although she does us an enormous favor by wathcign the kids is tha tKane drops gracie off at 5am and picks her up at 3pm. that is what mnakes it such a long day. Since george is workign in deryr he can drop matt off a littl ebefore 8am and I have been pickign up by 2pm or so. I dont know, as son top of it she had gall stones an dhad ot have her gall bladde removed an dI ended up dishing out $100/day fopr 2 weeks of daycare - its jsut easier to have ash in daycare full time. Ash started speech therapy last week as well. the school bus picks her up at day care tues-friday and brings her to special class form 9am -11:30. its been awesome things are good I have a cold daycare spreads disease im tired we went out to the chateau last ngiht and I won $200 on a scratch ticket so our meal was free in a sense ash woke up form her nap and I have to switch laundrey I am not into xmas shopping this year. Still need to find somethign for my brother. | | Friday, October 6th, 2006 | | 8:40 pm |
hail to the chiefq
chief. he is actually a she. and she is a gorgeous silver tiger kitten. a co-worker had a stray give birth in her garage and she/he needed a home or it was to the pound. I was hesitant because george was very vocal in regards to stormy and slapped the lid on my bringing him home when it wasnt "the world according to george". that asid eit has been a very rough few weeks, his company did layoffs I have had projects up the butt in the office and we have jus tbeen at each others throats over little stuff because there is no down time by the time we get kids to bed, we are too tired to see straight. anyway, george took to him right away. Even though he is a she. I picked "chief" because george loved Champ so much. chief is so patient and adoring. ash picks him up constantly. ( we call him he from here on out) he doesnt run away. he sleeps in our bed. so far my allergies havent been too bad. some itchy eyes, thats it! little to week old kitten scares the crap out of our big bad pitbull. it is a riot. we are refinancing monday at 2pm it has been a nightmare i think george will be calmer and more himself now. thank god ) | | 8:39 pm |
hey this is a lost journal entry that "saved" ...cool
literally. he pushed the nipple into the bottle and milk flooded his crib. his bear blankie and sheets were marinated in milk. sheets are easily replaced. there is only one blue blankie. blue blankie is in the dryer. can't sleep till he is dry. I mean physically impossible to sleep. not a chance of crying himself to sleep. we must wait. i always thought a dryer woudl be very quick with only one blue blankie and nothign else in it. still takes forever. I took tomorow off from work for my birthday. plan to go to canobie with the kids and george. ended up with a fed calls scheduled for work but all before 11am so I will have rest of day to not work on my day off. we went to the chateau tonight with the kids and had a blast. Wond 200 on a scratch ticket and matt ate everythign on the table. I stopped him at a package of butter. ash was awesome only spilled one cup of milk. and saturday we are supposed to go to parkers up in ringe with kane and marge for breakfast for my bday. george is so pissed. thinks its assinine to drive an hour and wait an hour for pancakes we have at home. but it is a tradition kane and I have had for over a year. he took me last year too and I kind of like it. so far no luck, but I hope to guilt him into joining us by 8am saturday. | | Thursday, August 31st, 2006 | | 9:14 pm |
crying over spilled milk
literally. he pushed the nipple into the bottle and milk flooded his crib. his bear blankie and sheets were marinated in milk. sheets are easily replaced. there is only one blue blankie. blue blankie is in the dryer. can't sleep till he is dry. I mean physically impossible to sleep. not a chance of crying himself to sleep. we must wait. i always thought a dryer woudl be very quick with only one blue blankie and nothign else in it. still takes forever. I took tomorow off from work for my birthday. plan to go to canobie with the kids and george. ended up with a fed calls scheduled for work but all before 11am so I will have rest of day to not work on my day off. we went to the chateau tonight with the kids and had a blast. Wond 200 on a scratch ticket and matt ate everythign on the table. I stopped him at a package of butter. ash was awesome only spilled one cup of milk. and saturday we are supposed to go to parkers up in ringe with kane and marge for breakfast for my bday. george is so pissed. thinks its assinine to drive an hour and wait an hour for pancakes we have at home. but it is a tradition kane and I have had for over a year. he took me last year too and I kind of like it. so far no luck, but I hope to guilt him into joining us by 8am saturday. | | Friday, August 11th, 2006 | | 8:22 pm |
I love the princess diaries 2
it's nicholas..something about the kiss by the fountain being so forceful.... anyway, george is still at work, they have been having systems issues all week - my work is going great projects are closing nicely an dI am getting the research done - it is so different working from home when it is a real job versus for myself. I am finding it very satisfying so far. all is not a bed of roses though - it is extremely difficult to adjust to havign so many people critique my deliverables - no one has had a problem with my research or the data - it is more the cosmetic design of the powerpoint presentations. i am finding it very tedious to have to review and revise my slides for days on end - and everyone there has very different approaches to presentatgiosn as well.. I did lead my first conference call with some pretty big c-level guys at a fortune 100 which was exciting and went well. in other news the kids are great and i keep telling ash we are getting a cat soon and every morning she is looking for the kitty - it is very cute. I am just waiting to hear on when stormy is ready - very exciting. i am finally getting used to the new schedule it was rough goign back to gettign up at 5am after sleepign till 7 for so long. I have been tryign to get to sleep befor emidnight but I don't generally have much luck - qand lately matt has been geting up around 4 so the lst house is more like a catnap. i have invested in nodoz for the first time in a few years. i love working near a mall again - and the galleria is much better than th eburlington mall ever was!!!! I finally got new bras. my chest changed a bit after 2 kids - and until now, i have been making due - but now, I have new bras - no wires sticking out not elastics stretched too far .... I may not buy my lingerie at fredericks anymore, but it still feels good to have a new bra let me tell you!!!!! just rewatched the season finale to crossing jordan... i can't wait for the new season!!!!!!!!!!! the latest dilemna is whether to enroll matt in daycare fulltime next month and stop dealign with my mom on a daily basis = the pros and cons are pretty even and I just cant decide -plus I have to take my moms feelings and preferences into account... very political I assure you. | | Saturday, August 5th, 2006 | | 8:21 pm |
good advice I got today -
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and A black lace bra. A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... One friend who Always makes her Laugh... And one Who lets her cry... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... A good piece of furniture not previously owned by Anyone else in her family... A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE Eight matching plates, Wine glasses with stems, And a recipe for a meal that will Make her guests feel honored. A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... A feeling of control over Her destiny... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... How to fall in love Without losing herself... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... HOW TO QUIT A JOB BREAK UP WITH A LOVER AND CONFRONT A FRIEND WITHOUT RUINING THE FRIENDSHIP... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... When to try harder ... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY. EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... That she can't change The length of her calves, The width of her hips, or The nature of her parents... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... That her childhood May not have been Perfect..but; Its over... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... What she would and Wouldn't Do for love or more... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... How to live alone... even if She doesn't like it. EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... Whom she can trust, Whom she can't, And why she shouldn't Take it personally. EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... Where to go... Be it to her best friend's kitchen table. Or a charming inn in the woods... When her soul needs soothing... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... What she can and can't accomplish In a day... A month. And a year... | | Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006 | | 9:35 pm |
I made userpics
this is a test work is going great but there is definately soem stress. we tried to have stephanie come down from maine with her two year old son zachary - she was supposed to stay with us and babysit make our schedules easier, clean, etc... it just didn't work out that way. she was supposed to stay the summer - she made it two weeks. it was awful her son and Ashleigh fought al the time she didnt want to babysit she screamed like a shrew at her son constantly 22 years old and she was homesick she nearly had a nervous breakdown when her son got an earache i had to spend a night in the ER she hit on george as soon as i left the house told us one story told my parents another it was HORRENDOUS never again I don't know why we don't learn I'm really warm | | Tuesday, June 13th, 2006 | | 2:07 am |
unemployment is a wierd state
I quit today. Without giving notice. It was extremely difficult since I felt terrible but after constant badgering over the weekend George had me convinced it was better than to work out my notice. In all honesty I half agreed. Eli was wonderful and very understanding, not only of the new position but why I was not working out notice. Both he and Steve asked how much Karen influenced my decision and I was very frank but I am proud to say, I did not badmouth her in anyway. She walked in on her way out the door for the evening and when she read the letter of resignation she had the gall to say "I'm so sorry to hear that it was really nice working with you" the ignorant two-faced witch. I was very precise and made sure to document all the work and responsibilities I have been handling and assured Eli if he had questions he was welcome to call me. The regret and sadness are fading fast. Still, I feel wierd...I don't start doign research till July 6th. I have a vacation. So everyone is sleeping and I just finished a book and I feel kind of restless. I would have liked for that job to work out. so easy and close to home. but I am very excited about having a job that is a cgood career move and a challenge and something I can come home and feel proud of at the end of the day. I'm going to try and sleep soon. | | Saturday, June 10th, 2006 | | 6:40 am |
Holy Crap !
I came home from work yesterday and had a voicemail and an offer letter from THE COMPANY. the one i interviewed with back in february who didnt give me an offer till after I took another job then called me a month ago when i hated Morse and said I coudl come on board an dit went wonky.... they didnt screw aroudn this time they created a position and actually wrote into the offer that i only had to be in cambridge 3 days and could work from home 2... unbelievable i have to call the vp today to talk abotu it but it is a no btrainer and i am takign it so now all i have to do is work up the nerve to quit on monday actually i have the nerve to quit wha ti need to work on is the willpower to not go into details about the why i want to keep it positive and talk about how i can smooth out the transition next week because i dont want to work two very excited its the job i wanted its the job i wanted 5 years ago when i left nortel but i didnt have enough experience then YEEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEEYYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEY EYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEY EYYEEY | | Sunday, June 4th, 2006 | | 8:41 pm |
I am cursed...no really wierd things happen to me!
I thought I had burned my throat eating a baked potatoe last weekend so when I started to get really sore and swollen and los emy voice I wrote it off. then it became unbearable an dI went to the dr on friday. he sent me to an eye ear throat specialist who promptly checked me intot he hopsital because I got an infection inmy tonsils which spread to my larynx and tissue and neck etc.. needless to say I stayed for a couple of days and got tons of antibiotics and licuid painkillers and am now feelign much better although my throat is very tired when I talk to much i am still interviewing ont he side an dowudl liek to change jobs but i am resigned to my fate until it changhes my kids are angles poor george was stuck with a lot while i was in hospital last minute jessica had her baby named him connor. 3 boys christian, collin and connor - i cant wait to hrear details i was out of commission most of last week an dunabel to speak or swallow for days before i finally got fixed up so i feel liek i have been on hiatus much longer than i actually was th eliquid diet was a good jumpstart to my new diet though let me tell you lol ok have to run season finale of sopranos is almost on im so tired | | Wednesday, May 24th, 2006 | | 3:32 pm |
I'm a horrible mother
LAst night we were on the porch and I was letting matt crawl around I was right next to him I saw him switch directions and head for the stairs and I lunged forward to stop him and he shot out in front of me and went head first down the porch steps. He had two teeth in his bottom row that were out and gorgeous and he lost them both. I feel so awful. I know he will grow new ones in a few years...or 6 or 7.... and he seems fien already he was so hurt last night and th eblood though..my god i can't stop seeing it.... my poor little man. work has been a nightmare I supposedly as getting a new job but somethign went haywire same company this is the sam thing they did to me last time I shoudl know for sure one way or another today so who knows. the woman I work with who hates me kept makign insinuations I was not a good employee and finally broke the last straw when she implied she thought I was stealing information I was so insulted it isn;t even funny. I went to the owner and complainedsince they have an open door policy. we all talked we got nowhere she made me cry well nto her I guess jy own emotional upheavel and I have been all worked up about all of this work stuff since last wednesday really. so I blame myself for what happened to matt either way it put it all in perspective. I have a job it pays ok its really close ot home if I dont get fuld. i will stay here a hile will be nice to go to the pool for lunch every day anyway my poor little man | | Wednesday, May 17th, 2006 | | 11:02 pm |
I was so excited the rain stopped... then it started to rain again!
Ok, I never got to that meeting in Cambridge last Friday they had to reschedule, I am going in tomorrow, and supposedly i will walk out of the meeting with a job, I was told they have the papers ready for me to sign and it is a formality to meet with the practice manager I will be reporting to. I am extremely exctited. today I was presented with my new job responsibilities and commission plan at my current job, and let me tell you, if I hadnt gotten the call from the recruiter last week, I would have called her tonight anyway! So I guess the timing really was perfect. Although today I had an impromptu meeting with the boss and gave him a brief rundown of the tension and attitude I have been getting from karen in the office, and he was incredibly supportive, offered to talk with her said he was overjoyed with the work I have doen and knows it is more tghan he was looking for and asked me to give the new job a 3 month trial and then we could reevaluate it to make sure it is working for me. I felt like a heel. I mean, if I get the jobv tomorrow, I will give notice friday. If I give notice friday I will only work one week as opposed to two. anyway enough about that. Ashleigh's daycare teacher recommended I have a consultation with a specialist about ashleigh's speach. She feels that Ash isn't improving as rapidly as she should. She also said it was most likely because we are back to baby talk at home with Matthew and it causes her to slow down. Anyway, she said a specialist could get Ash back on track. I agreed ofcourse, but I was a little taken aback, I mean, George an dI have been so impressed with how quickly she has been pickign everything up. She is only 3. Butg after processing it, I think maybe she has been a little slow on the draw as far as speach development goes. I don't know, she is smart and I do not doubt that but I would rather check now and make sure if there is something wrong and ..I don't know I feel bad - like I failed in some way? I know it is irrational, apparently this is very common. We will see. one more thing right?> poor george was supposed to meet his friends at hooters tonight and it is under water lol they ended up at Tbones. I found a girl who was my closest friend freshman year of college. found her on linkedin. I love linkedin www.linkedin.com free amazing I'm exctited! | | Wednesday, May 10th, 2006 | | 7:06 pm |
Coincidence or Fate?
Ok, so I haven't been posting much, mostly because I am embarrased by the fact that my perfect job on Stiles road a mile from my house is far from perfect. It is extrememly easy. I dentify small business owners and managers, cold call into the company schedule appointments and sell our network consultign services. I have done well and am extremely proud of my database i built up for them. Unfortunately, I work in a very small office and it is just me and this other woman in the offic`e all day. She is very difficult to work for. maybe it is me. maybe, because I worked out of my home for so long I have a problem with authority. Or maybe it is unreasonable to expect a full time sales person to be accountable for every moment of the day. By that, I don't mean that a sales person should shirk their job, I simply mean that in addition to cold calling, emailing and mailing information, there are other ways to build a sales pipeline. And they aren't done from behind a desk. Networking, doorknocking, canvasing office parks, organizing events etc... I am finew with her talking the boss out of decisions he makes when I ask him for a marketing budget or permission to move ahead with an idea. Really. And I am fine with her "tattling to the boss" when I got my eyebrows waxed on my way back to the office and then worked through lunch instea dof drivign all the way back to the office qand going druing my lunch break. I am even fine with her taking away the flexibility to work from home as often as i feel like (even though they spoke of it when hiring me) and constantly aksing me questions I don't feel shoul dbe her concern. fine. but it is a small company, she caused tension from the onset by expressing doubts to the owner about my trustworthyness during a time when i was logging in and wporking from home for hours every night on top of putting in a full day. And since I have been extremely put off by her fake friendliness since then, I find it offensive when she comes into my office on a regular basis to tell me about some new line item she has added to my commission sheet. I understand she handles the money and therefore knows the details of every dime I make. I don't want to be constantly reminded of it. It is petty and unprofessional. So the kids have been sick. I left work early today since I too, have a cold, to relieve my mom and let the kids have a peaceful afternoon at home. I got a call from the recruiter who was negotiating my job in cambridge backj in february when I was looking for work. The company I was desperate to get an offer form called her back and asked for me specifically. i told her to have the CEO call me. He did. I got a vberbal offer on the phone which will; double my pay wihtin a year from what I am makign now. ofcourse, it is in cambridge as opposed ot boston and I have reservations. and if this woman hadnty completely alienated me from week 1 I am sure I would have hesitated a lot onger than the split second it took for me to tell hij I woudl stop by their office friday after my sales call. I am elated. i am thrilled I am relieved. and I am stressed about havign to tell my boss that I quit. and do I tell him why? and if so - how much do I tell him?. will it even matter? should I just lie? I hate to do it. I like him. I like the job. I love the location. but because of this woman, I can;t see myself working here in a year, never mind ten years, so it would be ridiculous for me to pass up this chance at advancing my career instead of the backwards moves I have made the past year and a half with Edward Jones and this place. it's a no brainer. its exciting it's good for us money wise and gof rme self-esteem wise. he also outlined a very fast paced carrer-track that blew me away it is jus toverwhelming. the coincidence ofcourse, is that they calle dme today, the one day I was working from home, and that I was already plannign to be in cambridge on friday for an appointment. it couldnt be any more perfect. I feel sick thinking about giving my notice though. if they dont want me to work the new company said I could start right away. I don't know it is crazy huh? ps in other news, george has been great since switching jjobs, not angry all the time anymore and the kids wont die it is just a cold | | Thursday, May 4th, 2006 | | 8:11 am |
quick update
I am so against the thing that happened on Monday I can't even speak calmly about it. When did the phrase illegal immigrant stop bearing it's own meaning? ILLEGAL! I f you want rights come here through the proper channels and pay as citizens the way the government intended. Years ago, our country created laws and regulations to stop the uncensored flow of immigrants into the US. We have border patrol, and a process in place that dictates how one petitions for citizenship and applies for a green card etc.. We even offer lots of exceptions for people who will actually contribute to society - work visas- school visas...etc... Frankly, if all the illegal's were sent home and highschool kids and unemployed parents were forced to take over their jobs at the gas stations and Quizno's it would actually be a GOOD thing not a bad one. beyond that everythign I have to say is very negative and discriminatory so I will stop there. It turns out that my health insurance through work is Harvard Pilgrim NH an dit sucks. I was just diagnosed with hidradenitis and even though my primary care is not very familiar with HS I was given a referral to Mass general to see the necessary surgeon. Well, upon further investigation neither my primary care nor mass general are in my network and so I had to look for a new primary care. the positive to that is I found a doctor who is more familiar with the disease, the downside is what an irritatign inconvenience!!!. now I have to start form scratch medicl history and referrals etc... I meet her for first time on monday. work is ok there are some changes and some personality conflict tha tI doubt are going to be resolved an dmake it hard to imagine a long term commitment but the days are good for th emost part | | Monday, May 1st, 2006 | | 9:22 am |
| | Friday, April 28th, 2006 | | 3:12 pm |
| | Friday, April 21st, 2006 | | 8:08 am |
Salvation is at hand...
I need to watch Clue what a classic. speakign of classics george had to work last night so afte rthe kids went to bed I was able to do some work myself - I also got to watch THE KING AND I!!!!!!! so relaxing to watch a nice old movie especially a favorite. Thank god my parents ar ebac it was a lto of work gettign both kids to daycare inthe morning and having to pack everything for a day of matthew for them. Course I got no sleep last night since I stayed up workign till 1am hopign to see george when he got home, but I gave up he didfnt get in till 3am or so. which worked since matt was up screaming his head off from 2:30 to 3:30 so I got to see him afterall!! then matt and ash woke up early this morning. I swear, they will be the death of me. busy weekend we upgrade to FIOS tomorrow with Verizon and are getting the hydroseedign done to the lawn tomorrow and we have a 21st bday party to go to in lowell fo rgeorge's cousin so we will actually egt out of the house after 3 weeks of no "no kid time" | | Wednesday, April 12th, 2006 | | 8:20 am |
I love warm weather
Life is good, job is good, things are stressful wish I were losing weight faster, wish I were exhibiting more restraint. I like that my job requires enthusiasm...keeps me from going into a funk - but I wouldn't be very productive cold calling business owners is I were depressed now would I!??!!? peachtree farms is opened!!!!! can;t wait to take ash this weekend - we went to see ice age 2 last sunday and it was ashleigh's very first movie... it was great till the last half hour ash and matt were done but we were there with neighbors kids so it was definately still fun! | | Monday, March 20th, 2006 | | 5:22 pm |
Kidneys suck
Honestly, I have never known anything more painful than my kidney infection and that includes 2 childbirths, broken bones, u name it! my mom has a kidney stone. she has been in pain for two weeks and bleeding and finally we have identified the kidney stone. tomorrow she gets the bi 'l' word procedure that does the electric shock to smash the stone in her body. ugh not only do i feel terrible but i have been run ragged tryign to get hiome midday for my moms appts so that i coud watch matt. to top it off marge went back to work yesterday so mom has hgracie too anyway i am working from home for most of tomorrow since i need to stay with matt and it is ok because i had a very productive day today and have been gettign the job done so far. sopranos note - is tony going to die ?!?!!?? holy crap! |
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